How many times
does my heart have to break so soft
for me to learn,
dirtbags like me
are good for a laugh and drinks
then a lonely walk home,
her eyes looked me up and down
to measure my coffin
nothing else
then her words put me in it
cracked my heart again
I learned to breathe through those fractures
let me put it away,
it'll be worth it one day
How many times
do I have to feel ugly,
and in the way
that I don't feel like I am,
I stay in the dark
come up for air,
how many times before I can stay there
in the sun, warming all my imperfections
the way tears catch sunlight
studio Ghibli could never…
I'm sure I'll feel alright one day
pero today, ni madres
Richard Hernandez aka Softboi Mumble is a writer from San Diego. He mostly writes love poems with erotic tones and occasionally dips his toes into the existential void.